Feelings

Feelings of rejection,
Far worse than feelings of rejected,
It's your fault not others.


Past is still lingering, haunting,
Holding on,
Preventing from moving forward,
Heart aches, mind's sick, soul's tired,
There's no way around this.


Future is suppose to be bright,
But everything that passes are only darkness,
Dark pasts,
Just how do we overcome it?


Heart has been broken not once but times.
There is no fixing it,
When your heart is crying.
The only thing that you can do is to put on a smile,
Pretending that you are as happy as the outside image.



What people display on the outside is only a camouflage.

Entry #8: Sakit

Hati ini sakit sangat. Tiada sebab. Mungkin tiada sebab yang nyata. Cuma sebab yang tidak mampu untuk aku rungkai.

Mata...ini tidak mampu lagi menahan airmata yang kian mengalir tanpa henti. Cuma dapat mengalirkan kesedihan yang terlampau. Kesakitan yang tak dapat diubati.

Tangan....ini tidak mampu lagi untuk memekup muka menahan kesakitan dan airmata dari mengalir. Tidak mampu lagi untuk menahan sakit dan sebak di dada.

Suara...ini tidak mungkin dapat menipu dan mesamarkan keadaan sebenar. Tidak mampu untuk lontarkan rasa gembira yang palsu.

Jantung....ku tidak mungkin dapat berdetuk dengan lancar dan sempurna kerana secara metaforanya, jantungku kini juga menerima akibatnya. Sakit di dada. sakit di jantung.

Bernafas...kian tidak sempurna...kian tidak teratur...untuk menghembuskan walau sesaat pernafasan, bagaikan ada yang memekup di ruang pernafasanku. Pedih di dadaku.

Fikiran...kian tidak tenteram kerana terlalu memikirkan. Ya. Aku bodoh.

Kepala...kian sakit kerana memikirkan yang aku sekarang lapar lah.

Dan juga tidak lupa kepada....perut. Sakit doe. 

Ja ne. Nak pergi makan.

ps: yang atas atas tuh betul ok? yang pasal lapar tuh tetiba perut berkeroncong. so betul jugak lah kan.

Entry #7: An Advice

If you are not ready,

Don't,

Take a step further.

If you think you are,

Not good enough,

Don't take it to heart.

If only it affects you,

Alone,

Please do,

Take a chance.

But.

If you are involving some other's

Hearts,

Please.

Take a step back,

and see if you could be the best for them.

Because they deserve the best.

Entry #6: Confusion

Sometimes we are confused.

By the people who call themselves 'smart'.

Question !

What is the prove of that ?

Can you really prove that the information that you acquired,

Is frankly and 100% TRUE ?

Can you ?

By only using words from other people.

You are now calling yourself smart ?

Please do contemplate on this if you may.

Might really make you 'smart'.

You do want that.

Don't cha?

Entry #5:: Waiting

Waiting for your someone,

Just for that person to show up,

Preparing yourself,

Be the best for that person,

Is the most precious thing,

That you could ever do.

Wakarimasuka?

:)

Entry #4:: The Voice of Your Heart

Inspirational Words

The voice of your heart is nothing but the truth from yourself.

Be still and be patient in hearing what it have to say.

Not by forcing but simply by leading.

The voice of your heart is truly your best friend.

Why?

It will lead you to the things that you know.

You will Love.

Ai.

Have something to do with what happened to me recently.

Listen closely and you'll discover such mysterious things about yourself.

True!

#3 Entry: Today's Words

Inpirational Words

Got to wake up with a smile on your face.

Even if it is fake.

It will cheer people around you.

And, thus, spreads the happiness around.

So, SMILE..! :))